It sounds so simple. Yet it is not so easy.
I'm among the unlucky few to receive a 74 on the CPA Exam. This was my first retake after a 3-year hiatus from studying. My first attempt was actually a 26. I walked into the testing center and walked right out after 30 minutes of picking random answers on FAR back in 2014. This was before all the massive changes to better incorporate Bloom's taxonomy of understanding.
I always think back; and then I woulda, coulda, shoulda all over myself. It's the core reason for why I study now; I want to give my absolute best this time around. I know it will generate the best career opportunities for me in the future. I know it will be worth all the glory and gain. And I know that it's what I need in order to develop my self-discipline.
So what do you do when you meet an immovable object that is known as Life? The problems that we face every single day? The little inconveniences that seem like the weight of the world hinges on that very moment?
It's a rather simple solution. Keep. Moving. Forward.
It's definitely not easy though.
After going through a break up I thought I would have more free time and energy to focus all of my efforts onto the exam. Nope. Boy, was I wrong. My emotions kept thinking back and forth between the good memories and how I messed things up in the relationship. I squandered a weeks' worth of studying in attempts to try and make amends for a bridge that had burned a long time ago. I eventually found the strength to forgive myself. I did my best to make the exam my core focus.
The outcome? A 74. Being distracted from my old relationship didn't help with score. The dreaded wait, the nerve wrecking anticipation of score release, had finally come; and it was the worst score possible for any CPA candidate (passing is a 75). I had to fight the urge to think "woe is me." It was just a learning experience that I had to take seriously and figure out what it meant to my life. And so I continued the march forward.
Then I was fired, let go, terminated. But I'm the one who lost my job. I fully accept ownership of the situation. I had been with the firm for less than 3 months. I became too relaxed, too comfortable. My professionalism slipped and I sled down the wrong the path. I was cited for failing to meet the work expectations and that my performance was not up to par. My former co-workers had to re-work my duties. I felt like this was a combination of stress from the CPA exam and also the tragedy of losing a long established connection.
So here I am now. Unemployed. Separated. And dejected from continuous failure. What in the world am I supposed to do with all the stressors, anxiety, and fear that's all bundled up with the intensity of a volcano waiting inside ready to erupt?
Move forward. Simple, but not easy. Trust me.